i am so tired it is rather crippling am kind of just slumped weakly at my laptop blinking blearily at the screen not quite in the capacity to do productive things and feeling rather grouchy in general-

but still little things and words fill my heart up wi-

(really hate it when the parents walk into the room and peer at my multiple screens told you i'm grouchy)

-th a quiet kind of happiness and i think what have i done right to deserve this?

had my run stomping about feeling all self righteous and indignant, relishing my ride on the high horse. some things are off limits, i would just never. if there's one thing i should have known, is that what i think is common decency might not apply across the board.  

even if i have to sit on my hands to stop myself from grabbing them by their shoulders and shouting WHAT ARE YOU DOING, i must remember that everyone is entitled to make their own decisions (mistakes). growing up and looking at everything change gradually has really put into question my self-belief that i am non-judging. just like spilling a glass of water on a book, it soaks all the way through.





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