what makes the examination of history, of the past interesting: every day sheds light on the past, new experiences redefine things you thought were a given. but my eyes squint at the memories now reduced to underexposed mental snapshots. lay out the facts and some things may be clear, but i'm curious and curioser about objective measurements of my subjectivity. the very nature of my inquiry necessitates that only i will be able to carry it out, but my current state of subjectivity will inevitably taint objective measurements, discounting the fact that objective measurement sounds impossible anyway. but you know, curiosity killed the cat, probably out of vexation at there being no concrete answers. wouldn't it be interesting for there to be a split of me that can be the officious bystander that can provide me with a but of course! moment (oh shatap weilin u nerd)
there is no pain more acute than longing, and no greater gratification than requital.
SLS was actually quite fun today; culminating in the reinforcement of my utter stubbornness when it comes to what i think is right (in my head of course, who else to talk to when you're supposed to listen? apart from fb chat but ok). felt reassured for a bit that i had principles after all and was reminded of what my dear ly said about me- that i'm a stubborn bytch, it's difficult to change my mind once i've decided on something and while i'll appear to accommodate and consider alternative views, inside i'll continue to disagree. but no shame in admitting my wrongs.