sometimes it feels like i'm dancing in the open jaws of a leviathan. grisly teeth and scaly lips could snap shut and down i'd slide into the dark unknown. i'd like to and because of that have built myself to believe that i have the ability to escape before it's too late. some part of me wants to see how long i can last here balancing on the sharp tip of its tooth, before leaping back and out into the light. another part of me is afraid that i'd be here forever, the blood in my veins carried only by the sheer force of adrenaline and my heart pumping in time with the beast's.

i just had my medical checkup, which made me feel uncomfortable in about a gazillion ways. from peeing in a cup to sitting in a thin blue robe beside an acquaintance you JUST had to bump into at the second most awkward moment of waiting for your turn at the x-ray, i needed no reminder of how i hate examinations even if they are "only medical" and not "real exams". i'm also quite sure i got some on my vision test wrong. vision tests make me quite nervous for some strange reason.   

tears stream down your face/when you lose something you cannot replace

i have finished season one of community! in true community style;

bye ttfn adios! ...