2. Faltering at the keyboard currently. This is something that has popped up consistently over the years and i think that shows that things haven't changed. My need for security and assurance is something I've always hated about myself, but if I don't feel the need to be secure, then it just means I don't care. I just don't want to do this anymore. This feeling, then the guilt for feeling that way. Things must be equal, as it goes with science and life, equilibrium must be established. Simply, I'd treat people the way I've been treated. It starts now. I say that. Every time.
3. Applying for uni (read: applying for scholarships) fk sia why everybody so efficient
4. Feeling stupid and Why Do I Even Try... Some people just seem to naturally have it all and then make me look stupid for trying so hard and thinking that I have half a chance in making things work for myself in life.
Ok I feel so much better after talking an old friend. It's nice to know that there are still people here in this age of uncertainty