it's been an odd couple of days, some could testify to that. what with all the anxiety (some) of getting back papers and the horrifying sight of which is the school library after school (very much) just about stops my heart- or send it pumping through the roof. so anxious and stressed out even though i haven't by anybody's standards but my own been doing work. i can absolutely empathise with people going crazy over exams now; how many mini-breakdowns does it take to make up a full fledged one? how many pulsating plays of angry songs (my personal favourite: You're Gonna Go Far Kid- The Offspring) and laps in the pool does it take to make everything ok? how long till you know you've had enough forever? i wonder, i wonder.

apart from the insanity, it's been alright. well duh. have been doing lots of slacking/lepaking/chilling/nuaing to make up for the stress from doing nothing- oh the sick irony of it all. wouldn't i love to just forget it all and kick back with sangria and melt away in the sun.

often a time, i must kick myself and remind myself to stay strong. some people help, i keep their advice close to my heart. my mama said the other day, "it's ok, don't go to the library already ok?" somehow, it has become an emblem of everything there is to fear.

ok. nothing to say now. what an awkward ending.

serenity prayer