- my eyebags have eyebags. somehow no matter how much i sleep i cant get rid of that gaunt look i have around the eyes

- watched RV v.s. DHS basketball match today and RV won o yea let's go rv let's go~ cheered till our voices were hoarse. totally felt like i was in high school musical.

-am confounded by my inability to translate feelings and thoughts into words these days. also by the fact that i blog without beginning a sentence properly and avoiding personal pronouns.

-little things get to me these days and frustration teeters at the tip of my tongue but i save it. i save it and i tell myself you know these things these people don't matter and the more i chant that the more i start to believe it. as the numbers for the dreaded countdown click their way to zero, stress and tension are just going to increase exponentially and you just really dont need buttons pushed.

- i don't like the way i view people for it is extremely tiring. people are tiring. i have discovered that my last impression of people sticks until they do something to utterly change that view. often, nothing quite manages to change.

- i don't like lying. i don't like pretending. i don't like pretending to feel things when i dont, to laugh when it isnt funny and to play nice when i really feel like otherwise.

- i dont know why i so angsty today sia lolcatz

- am currently in the midst of the debates season, with the big M I D C S round the corner. am trying to inject some meaning and feelings into my last 3 competitions so that i would be motivated to work harder and to give it my best. but o m g it is hard do you know how boring research can be and how many other things i'd rather be doing. i know that i must attain the feeling where you feel that you have no reason to lose because of how hard you've worked and how much you know, if only taking that path wasn't so difficult and required so much discipline. i cant help but still feel not prepared not prepared not prepared and i think jeremy would keel me if i said that and give me a 123456 hours long pep talk.

- Life, WAI U LIKE DAT?!?!