2010 was...
looking back, in the grand scheme of things, 2010 was pretty damn awesome, even if it did have its dark moments. 2010 was punctured with exclamations of "OMG can't believe it's march/june/july/october/november/december already", the endless mindless cycle of going for lectures&tutorials can really blur time. despite everything, i had lotssssss of fun in between, thanks to the awesomeness that are my friends and the chance opportunities that knocked on my door.
2010 was also a year of many firsts and many novel experiences, although not all of them entirely appropriate to be listed on a public space LOL. but i can't resist- they include having piggyback races outside wheelock place at 2 am in the morning, sneaking into giraffe (both when it was open and when it closed down), getting groped by athletes during yog (ugh), tears streaming down my face in front of the computer when news of GWH broke, amongst other appropriate/inappropriate things which should/should not be disclosed.
but as mentioned, 2010 was not all sunshine, there were moments of self doubt, loneliness, anger, paranoia, emptiness and extreme feelings of sadness that threatened to overwhelm everything else. but by the end of 2010, i realised that you know, i was really sick of feeling not good enough for people and i'm just not going to kill myself over trying to be good enough anymore.
2010 was also the year that i fell in crush, out of crush, in crush and out of crush again to realise that what i've been looking for has been there all along. there's no way to talk about you on a public space without sounding crazy hahaha so just- thank you jt, for everything. thank you to all my friends too for being such awesome people that i can't live without, for all the crazy memories, the laughter and the fun we have together. for all the good times and the bad times and for being there through it all. here's to many more great memories and many more years of friendship.
2011 won't be easy, what with A levels and all. still in a bit of a shock that j1 is over just LIKE THAT. but for the sake of flying far away for uni and achieving dreams, i will grit my teeth and hang in there. 2011, be good to me. :)
(THE GOOD: 2011 has been great as of thus far- the last dinner of 2010 was had with ichians after karaoke and pris yj brian cherie and i counted down at sg flyer with lots of screams cheers hugs and ... camwhoring. then they crashed at my place and we played twister, wii, stress, ate noodles proudly cooked by yj and brian (i fail) before falling asleep on the couch at 7 am. then breakfast at macs before everyone left and i went to meet jt for tea (which smelt like pee T_T) and then dinner with the family before i came home and slept for 13.5 hours.
THE BAD: it's now sunday, which is housework day. what do we do on housework day? HOUSEWORK! oh yay. oh. and i haven't started on holiday homework at all. hee hee hee. )