xxkill

when people are overwhelmingly focused, disciplined, positive and goody goody, im just like woah, scared threatened depressed all at the same time. there are blogs that are just vomitting sunshine kindness rainbows timetables struck out to do lists goals resolutions what i did todays and i do mean it in all seriousness that these people have ISSUES man. im no sarong party girl (in fact i'm not even a PARTY GIRL i am nothing) nor a hardcore slacker (wait but these are from secondary school, in jc everyone's just like o.O -crazed look in their eyes- "MUG MUG MUG") in fact i do believe that i'm as boring as normal and people who are as boring as normal shouldnt be so happy/focused!!!

but of course. im in jc now. everyone's Focused Like That so maybe i'm the one with the issues...? dear government HELP ME i think i wasn't brainwashed properly i don't hanker after the 5Cs i don't necessarily want to go to university then get a 9-5 job (oh what blasphemy!) i don't want to get 4As if it means selling my soul for the next 2 years. hell no time isn't going to "fly", 2 years is a bloody long time to be unhappy!!

and then at the end of the day, or at the end of this post, i'd tell myself

Weilin. You cannot afford to be fall behind in your school work! You need to buck up, inhales read history read gp understand math practice math read econs memorise econs read lit books research on lit books read the economist read time read newspapers AND THEN read outside of the textbooks because the teachers say it is important "a levels is not like o levels (what o levels?) you know!" exhales. There is no time to be disillusioned! No! Time! To! Play! Have! A! Life! Or! Even! Think! Just! Study! Study! Study! STUDY!

"find me."

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