sometimes, you want people to know how you're feeling and understand why without you saying a single word. it is irrational and more or less impossible, yet i do that a lot and subconsciously blame people for being unable to do so. and then i reprimand myself for being ridiculous.

you want to say "im fine" and have people say "no you're not", want them to look into your heart like a pensieve and see these things because words are inadequate in expressing things. you dont want to mess this up with awkward phrasing hand gestures and laughter, because this is important.

but you fear that people wont think that this is important or treat it with the seriousness that you feel it deserves. you want company because problems can make you feel awfully lonely but having company brings along a whole slew of responsibilities and you don't want to change the subject or laugh and you just kind of want to



wallow. ...