as in people who are A Good Friend, in many ways. like who knows the right thing to say to cheer people up, who will just sms and ask "how's your day' that kind of things.
it's fricking hard to be a good friend please! i think im a bad cheer-upper
like, what the hell, it is hard enough remembering to reply people who talk to me via sms/msn. like it goes systematically like ok who talked to me take note, insert mental note to self : "remember to reply". then
"omg it's showing My Wife And Kids on Star Channel"
and then i slump on the sofa and watch My Wife And Kids and then the show after that and the show after that show and then it's 1 and 1/2 hours later before i remember to reply.
which is why usually my friends have to put some kind of effort into mantaining relationships with me, cos i'm not very good at that. on msn my conversations tend to die off cos im not really the type of person who will go on incessantly about things and when i attempt a zihigh heeheehahahaha-iamsocutecometalktomething, i'd end up feeling really lame and fake and itd go back to '.......... ' formal sounding conversations peppered with the occasional lol.
i think i talk better to people face to face or on the phone, though there is the occasional awkward moment where im like 'um um um ok lets gossip did u hear anything interesting recently?' in an attempt to fill up the silence.
i think i sound like a really sad person.
but all the same, i had fun talking to leeyin+junjie, followed by leeyin+yijin at carl's jnr yesterday. FREE FLOW OF DRINKS + pickles + endless stories and discussions = (:
oh and i always forget birthdays. i am sad when people forget mine but i am constantly, forgetting others' birthdays. inform 3 Free-After-School days in advance ok.
plus, it is disconcerting to see people so torn up over their friendship drift. im like omg this is so emo after reading their super sad italised words (cough hello you know who you are)and then im like :( omg theyre so sweet in a completely platonic way im jealous.
i think, it is time to get a neighbour friend. i've always wanted a friend who was my neighbour, how cool is that. like in a fit of boredom you call on your neighbour friend and you have many adventures together playing in the uh, playground or something or catching fish in longkangs and other kampong spirit-ey things.
hellllloooo sk8erboi+geek hybrid neighbour i think its time we meet. :B
nahhhhh.