and then id probably get flustered and start apologising.
but you know, i honestly dont see what is so fascinating. and rawr omg the guilt is like eating me up, i feel so super bad and responsible for all that has happened. and sometimes it feels like im walking through a sea of petite ballerinas as tall as my knee, awkward and clumsy and oh so ostentious.
i'm sorry.
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i hate school. cca is becoming more like a chore as well. today 3ich just got scolded by 2 teachers, for our attitude towards learning.
-.- i have totally nothing to say to that. i love 3ich though, i think we are such a cute class, uber burger zihigh. it is kind of sad that have to change seating arrangements already, cos i love my desk partner changchang and the people surrounding me, extremely entertaining lor.
went for debates tdy, discussed stuffs and i arranged mine, grace's, hester's and yijin's zig markers! UBER PRETTY LIKE A RAINBOWWWWW. and interviewed the potential junior and kajiao-ed the existing juniors abt ___. haha damn funny i laughed my ass off.
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the school week seems to past so quickly but then again so s-l-o-w-l-y.
it seems like the last weekend was just yesterday and i can remember all that i did so clearly. and then in a whirlwind of disgusting homework and tests and lessons and tadah it is friday and u wonder what happened to all that time.
and then during math or other equally horrendous lessons, the minute ticks by so damn slowly and everytime i look up only 5 minutes have passed. the school day feels so freaking long sometimes, ending at 3 ++, so mentally and physically exhausting.
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my dog just burped.
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i dread school. everything feels so pointless at this juncture. and not to mention, i have like a tonne of hw this weekend, esp since our chinese teacher seems to think we suck and thus need like mountains of homework.
school sucks.
p.s. shut up.