abyss
a bottomless gulf or pit; any unfathomable (or apparently unfathomable) cavity or chasm or void extending below (often used figuratively)
bleak
offering little or no hope; "the future looked black"; "prospects were bleak"; "Life in the Aran Islands has always been bleak and difficult"- J.M.Synge; "took a dim view of things"
things never looked so bleak.
am stuck in a spiralling abyss.
then only sound in the room is the sound of the whirring aircon and the loud clacking of keyboard keys. occasional loud breathing, similiar to a sigh, coming from cookie.
i dont want to sound like a over-emotional cliched stripy tie wearing emoqueen, but gosh. my stripy tie has me in a vice.
believe it or not, weilin is at a loss for words. nothing comes out right and no matter how i describe the loss and desperation, it just barely scrapes the surface.
hate this position in which am in now, because i am frozen to the spot and cant inch forward nor retrace my steps.
sorry cherie, weilin is finding it hard to be strong. nothing is the same anymore. i will try, i will try.
i will sit here until i get picked up and kicked along. for now, there isnt anyone strong enough to pick up or kick all 100001 kilos of me. the only one i thought was capable has, diffused, away.
bit by bit, inch by inch.
till the point that, the sense of familarity is no longer there for you anymore.
the taste of bitter regrets and shattered hopes.
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