I...

1) dont eat much but drink a lot when im upset
2) just had a drink of water with 10000 painkillers that is going to get my stomach pumped
3) am just kidding, the painkillers are actually antibiotics and throat meds.
4) am really tired of feeling like the bad guy, the one doing this to the emo soul.
5) am starting to feel like detaching from everything
6) dont feel like giving answers
7) have no life
8) want a life
9) want to watch Simpsons
10) want to watch Secret
11) want to not study for shz
12) want to not do math worksheets
13) want to be not slack (how contradicting)
14) want to hide in my hidey hole and never come out




15) feel like being irresponsible


(everytime i see something like it, i feel like running around and screaming "STOP IT STOP IT stop ALL OF IT!!!" and tear all my hair out like the mad woman i am)

(but im not a woman.)

(im a girlie girl)

this is the third time im editing this post already. decided to add some details about my day.

went for disco meeting early in the morning (11.30 am, relatively early horh) and was totally sian. was in quite a bad mood for today because i simply couldnt detach and concentrate. then at 6.00pm, went to esplanade sky gardennnnnn!

i tell you the place is damn gorgeoussss! you can see the city skyline and yet experience the breeze. piiishhhhhh i want to go there again! :D
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