yaya the camp was great except for the night when my bag got wet and it was show off the handphone time for sec ones yadayada but im honestly not in the mood to talk about camp now. it was reallyreallyreally fun though. whooots i love it and totally wont mind going again (except for the night coz i was damn pissed)
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i feel like im sitting on a cloud man. drifting away, drifting away from everybody, from it all. nobody knows me anymore and i dont know anybody anymore. im really bad at keeping in touch sometimes coz i just dont know what to say. and it positively stinks because i feel like all the people i trust are no longer there and have chugachuga left the station.
after a while of aquaintance communication its hard to fall back into the whole other thing coz feels weird to be saying things already. and i really get so sick of it.
and sometimes it annoys the hell out of me not to be like, i dont know how to say it without sounding like a jealous freaky asshole. to be not the first one, does that make sense? to be the one who gets the reply a 10000000 hours later, the be the one who doesnt get a callback, to be the one who knows that all the time i am absent everybodys having a ball of a time, to be the one out of the loop and to be the one pretending not to see as everybody exchanges private jokes, hushed convos and nudgy winks.
i have a list of msn contacts whom i dont chat regularly to and a list of handphone numbers i dont call. i can be very bad at making small talk, because sometimes i dont know how to. i give conclusive statements without knowing and have to resort to using date tricks, i.e asking questions that doesnt require a yes/no answer.
i have a whole lot of other issues but by the time i finish ranting, everybody (including myelf) would have fallen asleep.