my fingers literally slowed down when typing bronze.
upon typing it, i want to backspace it and wish there was something better for me to type.
it was a shock, but it wasnt a shock.
we had somesort of warning and mental preparation.
but we had high expectations as well.
i wasnt at syf for slightly more than half the sessions. but the other slightly less than half, i want to relive it, but i dont want to redo it. NOTHING in the universe would make me wish to alter the course of events and lose the spirit, lose the fun, lose the love for el- just for a silver title, a gold title, a gold with honours title.
nothing.
though this years syf didnt bring us a gold, it brought us many things that far surpasses a little trophy. it brought us closer as a cca and through syf, the dedication and passion for the cca is truly brought out among all elddsians.
i remember the time during one of the rehearsals in LT1, i was out in the seats watching the play as an audience. i smiled throughout the play (its rather weird as i was alone there smiling to myself), coz to put in a rather general way, they look so CUTEEEE in the performance.
but the more specific thing that i was thinking was that
i am so proud of el
as i said, being away for half the sessions and popping in and outs, there is always such dramatic improvement in what i have seen. they looked so confident and so in their character that i couldnt help smiling at them. that made me feel so warmmm and fuzzyyy cause el's determination and just this excitement in the air in achieving our common goal was just so obvious and poignant.
theres no other way to put it,
except el is like a second homeee to me (:
i have decided to press on and try my bestest not to be sad or disappointed anymore.
we tried our best in it, and our bronze wont be a setback to us
it would be our stepping stone
our walking stick
our glasses
our dentures
to a brighter, acheivement filled future.
el, we will last the distance.