what can i say? life is terrible but routine in its badness. everyday is the same shade of grey and i dont know.. there not even any more things for me to obsess about. get up. go school. homework.sleep. what an eventful day.
nothing seems to be i dont know.. FUN, THERAPEUTIC anymore. el doesnt help much. neither does disco. its more of a temporary painkiller? go cca and duties. laugh a little. be deillusionised to think everything is normal and alright. and like those pukey rollercosters, come down quickly with barely anytime to worry and fret.
its just I DONT KNOW LAR OK. i feel tremendously stressed now and i DONT KNOW WHY.
maybe its those small things that pile up. imagine a happy shiny pink (i like pink) rock of HAPPINESS. and disgusting little ACIDIC SAD PISSIFYING events. each event is several drops of acid, eating, ebbing away at my precious happiness.
insecurity. dripdrip.
school work. dripdrip.
friendship problems. dripdripdripDRIP.
people problems. dripdripdripDRIP.
messyroom problems. (oh toot. its really messy. =X).dripdrip.
i guess thats how i do it. smile mindtoot mindself into thinking everything is happy. and thus appear nonchalant and unaffected. but the reality.. is difficult to hide from.
wth. tarot cards doesnt seem to be working for me. not that it gives me bad results, it gives me GOOD results in fact. but the thing is exactly opposite! toot larhs. give me high hopes only, makes me think. and it all turns out to be as useful as acid rain.
ohgreat. what a cheerful lovely little song im listening to now.
lonely-akon
never mind. i DO like that song. has that melancholic tone to it.
aint nowhere in the globe id rather be
aint no one in the globe id rather see
than the girl of my dreams that made me be
so happy but now so lonely.
bleahhs evil song.
excuse me if i spaced out in front of you these few days. i really cant help it. lol. its like seeing something that triggers any memory of whatever thats bothering me now i can come up with this elaborate story of what could happen. and the story is usually full of crap.
ANOTHER THING. why is shit a bad word? i really dont get it. i mean it is pretty just another word for faces poo and crap. and accept it school administration. its something that comes out of your ass. you are the one thats weird if you dun do it often.
touched my heart
touched my soul
changed my life
and all my goals
love is blind
and that im knewing
my heart is
blinded by you
kissed ur lips
and held you hand
shared your dreams and
shared your bed
i know you well
i know you smell
ive been addicted to you
goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me
Goodbye my lover-james blunt
i dont understand how come james blunt;s lyrics can be so porno yet so romantic at the same time.
"ITS A GIFT"
tooooooooooooooooooooooooot. was typing a previous tag reply post when i clicked publish and blogger literally ate my words!! FREAK MAN. never mind, think peace and serenity. sorrayy guys! will reply at later date. coz no.1 im rather lazy no.2 i need to pack my room no.3 i wanna sleep and no.4 im rather lazy. X)