standing in the meeting room getting scolded by mrs look and mr chua.
wow. happy birthday. what a happy birthday.
i am maligned. YUAN WANG.
god save me. i realised over the years over countless numbers of arguments that when talking to adults the easiest thing to do is to just nod your head and get it over with.
i am sick of fighting for my rights. when saying your side of your story if you butt in halfway, or in a situation where you are getting scolded and you have no opportunity to explain urself, you are considered as DING ZUI. i feel so frustrated that i have gotten in the bad books that i have left a bad impression when the TRUTH is that I DIDNT DO MUCH. dragged in for nothing, with other people thinking that i have committed some heinous crime in damaging somebodys self esteem permenantly.
and now, when a good thought have been given. then the realisation that i in fact didnt do much sinks in and all realises that i was in trouble for almost NOTHING. in bad books for almost NOTHING. having to use my "second chance" now for almost NOTHING. risking my title for almost NOTHING. the more i think about it, the more bu fu qi i am and the more irritated and angsty i feel.
i have gotten over the sad part. right now, all i want to do is to go crazy with the scissors and cut some paper.
ARGH! if not for yuping i would be totally spewing vulgarities now. I AM TOO ANGRY. ARGHHHH. I HAVE LEFT A BAD IMPRESSION FOR NOTHING. HIGHLIGHT UNDERLINE NOTHING! ARGHHHHH.
this has been the worst birthday ever.
but if today was total freaking trouble free, it would have been an absolutely fantastic day.
i would really likee to thank shirleen xuqin yijun cherie karin yinshiuan mandy for their gorgeous pressie! felt so blessed. ((: <3 you guys to bits!
ooo. must thank joonteen too then. he is getting me the radish handphone pouch thingy which he claims is absolutely ugly BUT so not true can. its ADORABLE.
and i <3 disco! gawd. didnt even know they know! happieee.
that was why i was so sad and afraid actually. because i was sad that i were to be stripped of my title. and then id have to leave disco. havent properly gotten my rings yet but disco alr rocks my world.
somebody PLEASE save me.
feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. having to deal with the effects of bad impressions and painful words are going to posion me.
so glad for cca tomorrow. seriously feel like talking to nq.
*wails* save meeeeeeee
oh. im so not going to enter the admin office tmrw to collect the latecomer book for disco duty. that place leaves me with haunting memories. D`:
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ningqian! - yeaa lor. so dumbb. since already going for much older guys. that age also shouldnt make a difference.
yuping! - ahaz.. kayys. i'll try. i only use vulgar lang. when i am EXTREMELY pissed. LIKE NOW actually.
jolene! - exactly! urgh. she makes my skin crawl. LOL. yah! can see resemblance
ziqi! - hiiieee ziqi!! *pinches cheeks*
shirleen! - as if! that gold phone is absolutely gorgeous cann. i wanted that!!
sonjia! - ROFLMAO sonjia! how true. hallucinations and a wild imagination. i guess she forgot to take her medicine or something.
charlotte! - hahaz.. you should be glad you didnt. its ext stressssful. ):
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