im backk again ((: ningqian was asking me how come never update so hear i am ((:
so sian lorhs. i think im really starting to hate third lang. i just feel so stressed about it. our ca3 is next week and half the time during lessons i still have to ask melissa about what sensei is talking about. i dun think i can take it anymore... im caving in under all that pressure. i feel so tired before lessons and its like for the entire first half of the lesson the only thing im concentrating on is keeping my eyes open and nodding at whatever sensei is saying whenever she looks my way. then after break, wheni take a look at melissa;s notes, i feel so stupid. ive not been listening and not taking down notes and i dun understand a word that is written there in black and white. i feel like quitting now... i really do.
i got te top in class once.. a long time ago. i have no frikking idea how i did that. yah okie. perhaps i had actually studied. but i really cannot stand it. i look at my japanese stack of worksheets and at everybd's immaculate ring files and i feel so inferior. cant take it anymore.. hopefully this is just a phase and after a while i can go back to loving japanese again. hopefully this isnt the end... ...
okies. enough of boring you with my constant whining. sigh. such a sad day =(
heard news about the guy who wanted a suicide pact with some china gal. after killing her, he backed out "after seeing her face before she died".
i say : ure an asshole.
make suicide pact w somebody also can back out one? then she had meaninglessly given up her precious life for somebody she loved, thinking that he would come and join her in heaven. but in the end... she would have to go through it all herself and wait for him in wherever she is. although i doubt it would be love she'd feel for him when he finally joins her... feel so outraged and indigant on her behalf.
sigggh. eL seniors all seem so disappointed... i promise. us sec one juniors will try harder and give our best to eL okie? eL is what we all look forward to every tuesay and friday. eL is the only time in school when i can be nice and crazy and laugh until it hurts. and can put on fake accents and be bimbotic with el frens. wait. this sounds so familiar. omgawd. ive said this before. see! reemphasis me point. lolz. diaao. anyway. i didnt even noe i was repeating myself. gahh~
i agreee... last friday renee really seemed really pissed. but i suck at ball games. during pe in primary school, whether isit soccer or basketball. people run towards the ball. i run away from it.
see. big diff. but in the past is all the atheletic people and not to mention TALL people being good and enthu at basketball. and from here already can see the obvious le lorh. 1. im not athletic 2. im not tall. siggh. gahhs~ reminds me of sean quek. always comparing my height. grrr. not my fault im short.
i think im getting a head cold. not sure what a head cold is. but i think im getting it. my head hurts. feels like sb is slowly and tortourously (howvever u spell it) using those kind of ikea screwey things that they give u and screwing a hole in it. and my nose feels cold. and my head feels cold. so. i think i am getting a head cold. owww.
i guess switiching on the air con stright after bathing is not such a good idea after all..
sian. rushing for html. see melissa+qq's one and jt's one so jealous larh.. so nice their html. mine is like so amatuer. but never mind lah. i like it ((:
every time i see your face`everytime you look my way `its like it all falls into place` everything feels right...