in fact, i'm absolutely swamped by homework and i really should be starting on the 50+ pgs of history notes/doing my math tutorial/writing my GP reflection, yet in reality im doing none of the above. the scarcity of time necessitates the making of choices and right now my choice is not making a choice.
there are lots of things that i don't do well in.
1. handling rejections and severely anti-climatic situations
2. dealing with being average
3. not procrastinating
4. dealing with envy and jealousy
5. math
sometimes, i think i'm going mad, just like how Bindy Mackenzie did in The Betrayal of Bindy Mackenzie or Antoinette in Wide Sargasso Sea (but i'm only at part one so i cant see our similarities yet).
but Bindy was poisoned by arsenic and unfortunately i don't have the excuse of that. the only things that are majorly toxic in my life is the fact that i have cca up to 5 days a week and the toxic stench of what smells like burning rubber is my mom's vile herbal brew for her skin.
school sucks majorly ok im sinking like in quicksand. am taking things by the day right now and i really don't see how that is in any way healthy.
付出的从来不会等于收回
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(伤伤伤伤了几回)
i look and these cold eyes are all that i see
Sunday, January 31, 2010 10:58 PM
usually by sunday afternoon, i'm like fk. it's monday tomorrow. school sucks big time. there is absolutely nothing good about being a jc student, in fact jc is rotting out my insides.
what is there to fear in life but people? for the unpredictability of humans is the most basic element of all that there is to be troubled about.
juniors' jgs round one is this friday, versus saint A_ (?) jia you my loves, do us proud :D
my life has been reduced to being described about with a few lines.
here we go again....
what is there to fear in life but people? for the unpredictability of humans is the most basic element of all that there is to be troubled about.
juniors' jgs round one is this friday, versus saint A_ (?) jia you my loves, do us proud :D
my life has been reduced to being described about with a few lines.
here we go again.
fake what you don't have
Sunday, January 24, 2010 9:40 PM
i have recently taken to calling everyone "chewren"/"chow" for the fun of it. school has been tiring and although i quite look forward to breaks, i still find it ridiculous that we have so many breaks but yet we end at 5. i quite like the new school library. i ate an apple and xinmun's cookie in the reading room on friday. is it just me or has anyone else realised that the sun is setting later and later? @ 7.14 pm today it looked as if it could be 6.15 pm. i quite like receiving emails that are not to do with work. today, i went to buy cny clothes with my mom but instead of buying clothes, i got an eyeliner from sephora, a book, rainbow mentos and orange m&ms, while she got a new wallet.
ok, one paragraph of mundane things because i couldn't think of anything to blog about.
the arrival of the new principal has stirred up plenty of controversy, quite funny really. facebook groups have been sprouting up and i think too much exposure to his lengthy speeches is going to make my english deprove. (see, noob alr, there's no such word as deprove!)
ok im really darn uninspired. we end at 5pm tmrw. joy to the world.
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ok, one paragraph of mundane things because i couldn't think of anything to blog about.
the arrival of the new principal has stirred up plenty of controversy, quite funny really. facebook groups have been sprouting up and i think too much exposure to his lengthy speeches is going to make my english deprove. (see, noob alr, there's no such word as deprove!)
ok im really darn uninspired. we end at 5pm tmrw. joy to the world.
math sucks zzz
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 10:07 PM
math is the bane of my existance. i would love HELM so much better without the M!! although i'm infinitely glad that science is out of my life, please please please if you take away M, life would be Perfect. zZzZzZz.
hate math to the max. coz i dont know how to do the stupid review though i know it's not difficult ok. forgot all the concepts alr differentiate my ass man, stupid piece of paper that's causing me so much grief. i've been procrastinating for the entire night and i'm so desperate to escape math i even checked my junk mail.
WHY OH WHY MUST I DO MATH. UGHHH !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@#$%^&*(
ok it's 10.24 pm math is officially abandoned. good night world....
hate math to the max. coz i dont know how to do the stupid review though i know it's not difficult ok. forgot all the concepts alr differentiate my ass man, stupid piece of paper that's causing me so much grief. i've been procrastinating for the entire night and i'm so desperate to escape math i even checked my junk mail.
WHY OH WHY MUST I DO MATH. UGHHH !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@#$%^&*(
ok it's 10.24 pm math is officially abandoned. good night world.
Sunday, January 17, 2010 11:54 PM
when i think of debates, i wanna cry. you'd think that i've run out of tears for debates by now. debates has been fucked many times over and i give up. because there's no way out of this labyrinth. i don't even feel like going for training anymore because face it. what's the point. we're not working towards anything. training is just a facade that feeds the illusion that debates is a functioning part of eldds. it is not. ok. train for jgs/jcdcs for jackshit. don't even have a team. got team also confirm get pwned.
train. for. what. fucking feel like quitting. resuscitating a corpse is useless. not to mention fucking tiring.
i really. want. to. quit.
debates is the epitome of fail. please surprise me, how can it get any worse than this?...
train. for. what. fucking feel like quitting. resuscitating a corpse is useless. not to mention fucking tiring.
i really. want. to. quit.
debates is the epitome of fail. please surprise me, how can it get any worse than this?
Saturday, January 16, 2010 10:52 AM
good morning little birds it's 10.52 AM on a fabulous saturday morning and i couldn't feel better except for the fact that i have
1. GP to do
2. Debates speech to write
3. History to read
but apart from that, everything's fine here in lala land and i do mean that in an absolutely serious way because i'm going to town soon with the awesomefoursome (can't remember who coined that) and the weather is nice and warm therefore life's good all around and did you realise that from the start till now it is all one long sentence ?
i've officially survived the first week of school with 3 days of orientation, a day of introductory lessons and a day of learning symposium. timetable's crap with PE as last period on thursdays and on tuesdays i dont have a break till 12 pm! damn shit plz. but o well for learning symposium the thimun team won the $300 book voucher!!!!!! :D :D :D which translates to $20 each of which i'm extremely happy about woohoo~~
because i'm extremely Focused Like That i shall go do my work now (crosses fingers) and there really isn't much to say when i'm in my happy sun toasted bubble so.. good bye little birds.
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1. GP to do
2. Debates speech to write
3. History to read
but apart from that, everything's fine here in lala land and i do mean that in an absolutely serious way because i'm going to town soon with the awesomefoursome (can't remember who coined that) and the weather is nice and warm therefore life's good all around and did you realise that from the start till now it is all one long sentence ?
i've officially survived the first week of school with 3 days of orientation, a day of introductory lessons and a day of learning symposium. timetable's crap with PE as last period on thursdays and on tuesdays i dont have a break till 12 pm! damn shit plz. but o well for learning symposium the thimun team won the $300 book voucher!!!!!! :D :D :D which translates to $20 each of which i'm extremely happy about woohoo~~
because i'm extremely Focused Like That i shall go do my work now (crosses fingers) and there really isn't much to say when i'm in my happy sun toasted bubble so.. good bye little birds.
formspring.me
Sunday, January 10, 2010 11:00 PM
do you luv meeee? :>
yes shirleen i do you crazy shit
formspring.me
10:59 PM
wud u rather get drunk in front of ur crush or drunk alone with ur male bestie?
male bestie duh omg, i can't imagine the things i'd say if it was the former = good bye freaked out crush.
formspring.me
10:37 PM
if you had to choose between your bestfriend and your boyfriend, who would it be?
don't have a boyfriend in the first place, SO THERE. ok but still. bestfriend in a heartbeat.
formspring.me
9:32 PM
weilin hasn't answered any questions yet.why am i the best thing that has happened to you?
because you're Sonjia (IDENTITY REVEALED) and we all know Sonjia has the best reaction when you touch her neck.
formspring
8:41 PM
hi hi hi everyone tomorrow's the first day of school. cries. after packing my wardrobe and realising that debates is pushed back to friday instead, i celebrated by playing pool and NOT doing GP. woohoo.
i've been seeing formspring on tumblrs EVERYWHERE and i think the concept of it is super cool so....
here's my formspring :D please ask my questions PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE i promise to be excited and answer Anything
http://formspring.me/cosmicidiot...
i've been seeing formspring on tumblrs EVERYWHERE and i think the concept of it is super cool so....
here's my formspring :D please ask my questions PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE i promise to be excited and answer Anything
http://formspring.me/cosmicidiot